Busy DayToday was a busy for me because I rushed to work. I took only five minutes to reach Dover MRT station which I think is quite fast especially when I had to make sure my pants would not fall off and to keep my things but continue with my walking.
When I reached the MRT, I had four missed call from my company because they wanted to make sure I was on my way. Because of them, my hand-phone bill will reach almost $20 and the worst is they would call everyday. Do they want to pay for me? o.O
Yesterday, during my product training, an aunty kindly warned me about the manager at my outlet. So, today I was a little worried and scared especially when I was going to be late – I told my company about this the day before.
After some walking around to punch in and find my stuffs, I went to took for the manager. I asked around and finally found him. The first thing he told me when he saw me was, “Wait outside!” with a very fierce tone. I gave him a very stunned look but of course, he did not see it. =p My immediate response was “oh my god, is that him? o.o” Meanwhile, there was an aunty which I guess she is in-charge of something, kept nagging about something which I found it very irritating but funny. I laughed at her when she did not look at my direction. But, when she turned around, I pretended nothing happened. =p
Actually, this is how I will react when some people scold me. I am not a sadist but sometimes I just find them very unreasonable or the way they looked. I know that sometimes I make some jokes which no one would understand. I guess no one would react like I do. But, seriously, a scolding session could turn out to be an entertaining session for me. =p I am such a clown.
Anyway, I found the people there are very nice, kind and helpful. But, I am always too shy to talk to them but people who know me would know that I have made an effort to change. =)
You know, I feel that sometimes no matter how hard you try, you might not get the desired result you want. Someone asked me to continue to work on something but I have decided to give up. I do not want to get hurt, disappointed or angry because of that again. I have tried for at least a year and given many chances. Being soft-hearted and compromising does not always pay off well, really. When it is my turn, can you give in to me? I am always waiting for the day for something to happen but at the same time, I would try my best to help. This is me. Can you appreciate it and take it seriously, perhaps for the sake of my effort, not for me? I do not look innocent which I admire some people for this. If you understand me well, I do not hate anyone. It is tiring to hate people and foolish too. No matter what I do, I always believe that it must not go against my conscience or even when I am selfish, I will not be too selfish to the extent which I totally ignore someone's feelings. I will not. Because, this is me.
I may not look innocent but I am really sincere and harmless. I know that human's nature is greed and selfish so I always try to overcome that. I really try. Hard.
