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This is a public blog of mine. Frequent posting is not expected.

Capricious Chu Er/21F
she is someone who..



~is a typical aquarian

~is extremely fragile

~plans ahead

~is extremely emotional and sensitive

~can be unforgiving(or rather would avoid)to people who use harsh,insensitive or/& irresponisible words on her

~is quite independent

~has high determination

~is simple yet complicated and deep

~can get very impulsive if anything goes out of her way

~does not express her real feelings/thoughts well

~spends a lot of time in her own thoughts

~usually means it when she mentions something for twice or more regardless of whether she says it in a serious or joking manner



~certainly feels very pissed off when one tries to act as if he/she understands her very well when it is not at all!

~certainly cannot stand people who commend about her behaviour when they are also doing the same thing!

~hates to be accused by people especially with no good reason!

~hates last minute work and/or work with no efforts put in!

~hates to be late


~wishes to get freedom soon

~wishes life is smoother than before

~wishes to be a good presenter/speaker

~wishes that her future is what she wants to persue



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Friday, February 20, 2009




Simple Life Simple Mind


As I grow up, I get more sensitive to my surroundings (okay, sadly, it is more towards strangers). I am very curious about life in the third world country (a.k.a. undeveloped country). I am just a very normal girl but with endless of wishes and hopes for everything around me. I am always in my thoughts (erm. Yes. It can be at anywhere and anytime.). To some, I am just another typical Singaporean who wants everything to be fast (Actually, I am very particular about deadline. But, as I saw and worked with many others, I slowly accept that it is just different for everyone. IF you cannot accept that they cannot finish their task on time then do it for them.) and the best of the world.

I started to notice a show on Channel U at 8pm on every Friday. Every week, they would invite a Singaporean to a third world country to stay for a couple of days to experience the life there.

Okay. Today I was being evil to make a comment. Well, I seriously hope to get to a chance to experience the life in a third world country. (Okay. Perhaps I am weird. I am just weird but I just know that city life is not my cup of tea. I hardly enjoy what I am doing and what I own.) I asked my sis, “Hey. How come they didn’t choose me to go?” My sis said, “Don’t you notice that they always choose pretty girls for their show?” Ha. Guess what? When I saw that host for today’s show, I immediately made a comment without thinking. I sulked and said, “Hey. Look. She is not pretty at all.” = p Well, that comment did make my mum and sis laugh at me. o.o

I am deeply impressed by the life they lead, the house they live in, the things they own and the kind of food they eat.

We always complain when we are being underpaid for a job we do. They do not even have a choice. A lady only earns S$2 for 8 solid hours of hard work under the hot sun and she has to feed a family of 5 with that. Her kids are so mature. They do not complain. The eldest manages the family and does all the house chores. By the way, the lady is a widow. The BEST is; the kids there enjoy attending lesson! Perhaps, it is just the background I came from, so it resulted to me not having a very good impression of attending most lessons. I feel that I must and should do that. Seriously, I have never seen any of my classes reading a passage so excitedly like…they are reading their favourite story or the best thing to do in the world is to read a passage. Never! But, they do it. To me, it was an amazing yet touching scene.

Anyway, I was very touched by what the host did for the school over there and for the family she lived in. She actually bought a lot of stationery such as pencil and exercise books for the school. Do you know that exercise books are very precious to them? She brought badminton rackets for the family. No one in the village had never seen that for the whole of their life and how often do we see them? I was very excited about playing badminton when I was very much younger and even strived to master it. Ha.

When she left, that family actually cried wholeheartedly like someone has just kicked the bucket. I think the host is one of the very few thoughtful people I have ever encountered with. She said, the best gift she could offer for the people was to not bid goodbye to them with tears but with a happy smile. The village treated her like she was a special guest by arranging and having special performances when she arrived and left.


I really learnt hell lot about not comparing your life with others because not only will this make you feel worse than ever, but also, it will strain your relationship with the party you are comparing with. Comparing with them, I am nothing. I know I do take things for granted at times so I often question myself for doing this. Do you?


I dreamnt of you at 2/20/2009 11:59:00 PM




Friday, February 13, 2009




A belated birthday dinner from Jet!


I finally met up with Jet after so long. The last time we met up was during the Christmas in 2007. Ha ha. He was busy with his A levels while I was/am busy with school work and work. I really have very little time for social activities. =( Anyway, we kept talking and talking until we felt that time was passing by too fast. We aim to meet up again before he goes for his NS. =D Thanks Jet, for your treat. Greatly appreciated. =)

You know, when some of the friends talk to me, I really feel very guilty for not going out with them for a very long time. I don't know. I only know that I will busy working again. Sigh. Thank you friends for not forgetting me all this while. I think I feel quite touched when a friend actually said that she understands me very well so she knows that I have not forgotten her even though I never really keep in touch with her.


Oh ya. Yesterday, Andrew, Guo Wei, Stel and I were supposed to stay back to revise our Biz Maths but in the end we kept talking from 11 to about 3. Andrew went home first so Stel, Guo Wei and I went to Moberly to study. In the end, we still talked more than we studied.


Look at this water-droplet like ball. I gave it to Guo Wei after my last blood donation since he seemed to like it a lot.


Yes, Guo Wei was so fascinated with it that he kept asking what it reminds you of and kept playing with it too. It was very funny. It was really fun yesterday. Love you people, my lovely classmates. ^-^




I dreamnt of you at 2/13/2009 11:47:00 PM




Friday, February 06, 2009




Continues





HoHo. I am back! This entry is going to be quite long. Yes, it is going to be about my 20th birthday. Nothing big but rather memorable. =) You may be thinking that I am trying to brag about it. Well, if you know me well enough, every little thing is just for my own memory.









Here it goes:





24/01/09





I remember that I just reached home from my 2nd home, Queenstown Community Library and I started whining to my sis that I was feeling very hungry. To my disappointment, other than the Chinese New Year snacks, I could not find any proper food at home. = / Well, that is my home. I think I would die of hunger if there was a war. (By the way, last week, I dreamt that there was a war and the first person I thought of was my mum because she was alone at home. I was worried that my neighbours would not be thoughtful enough to ask her along.) As such, she thought of treating me to Fish & Co for my birthday celebration as I had not been there before. She thought that the Wheelock’s Place outlet was still there but it was a wasted trip so we had to drag our feet to the Glasshouse, the one located at Plaza Singapura. o.o

It was really nice over there. I loved the service there a lot especially the manager. They were such nice and friendly people. I loved the birthday song they sang to me because it was filled with gusto and energy. What’s more can I ask for?

Let me side-track a little. There was a girl of my age celebrating her birthday. That is not the point. Her boyfriend actually went up the stage and played guitar and sang a birthday song, no, two birthday songs for her. It was so awfully sweet! Well, I always think that one of the most romantic ways to propose to a girl is to propose to her at a beach, play a guitar and sing a love song. I know this is classic but don’t tell me that you, You, YOU, have not thought of it before. Okay. Perhaps, I am the only one. *shrug*












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My mouse shoes! One of my purchases at Haji Lane. I got them at a much cheaper price. =D

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Look at the necklace I wore in the picture. It is one of the gifts from sis. =)

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Swordfish Collar. We shared this. Trust me that she was not being stingy. Even with me, a big eater, we had difficulty finishing this. If you ask me, the fish was not my cup of tea but the rest were okay.

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Me with Pink Passion. It was quite nice and refreshing. =) We shared this too.

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The plates of sauces we finished just by eating Swordfish Collar. Sis always says that it is a bad habit dipping my food into sauce because I am not appreciating the food. Can I beg to differ? I just want to enhance the taste of the food. =D

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They made me stand while the crews sang a Fish & Co birthday song for me. I was so embarrased by it or rather being so shy. I always feel so shy when it seems like all the attention is on me. = / Oh. I smiled all the way because that was the best reaction I could give. = p
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The crews. =)

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The cheesecake or rather my birthday cake. I think it was quite nice because it was not too cheesy but just nice.


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Sis asked me to take this photo. o.o I do not know why. = /
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The card with a photo of us attached to it. Yes, that is the manager I am referring to. He is really nice. =)



That is all for this celebration. It was really, really a nice experience. It felt great to have people singing a birthday song for you. ^-^ Thanks sis!





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The handmade bookmark (handmade by my sweet sis) and red nailpolish (I remember that it was one of the "wants" for my 2008 new year resolution but I got it for this birthday. =/) .




Next up.

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This is one of the T-shirts given by Benjy. I love both of them. The white one is sweet while the turquoise one is unique. =D

Actually, he brought me to Billy Bombers (27/01/09) and Kenny Roger (30/01/09) on two separate nights for my birthday celebration. Sadly, we did not take any photos. Ha. Obviously, the food was great. I think there is a big big hole in his pocket now. Thanks la. Thank you thank you. LOL


31/01/09
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This is from Afiq! The chocolate is quite nice. Actually, I was quite surprised that he bought something for me. Sweet Afiq~ =D



01/02/09


Created by Alex. =) So cute and right, eh?


I spent my birthday doing the most hatred project, WSNA but with the right people, so it was not that bad. The moment I met up with Stel and saw the cake she held, I was already guessing that might be for me. Then, she said Andrew told her to buy something (the cake). So, I tried very hard to be nonchalant about the cake by not asking anything. Later on, they (Hui Si, Stel and even Andrew) were acting quite secretively when we left Andrew's house for a steamboat at Hui Si's house so the answer was even more obvious. I tried even harder to pretend not see nor hear anything. Okay. The main point is not about pretending not to see nor hear anything but it was the thought that counts. It was really, really very sweet of them to plan a surprise celebration for me. Well, I did try to be surprised. =) Anyway, it was really very nice working with you guys for this project. I really appreciate it too. Hope you guys enjoyed my company too. Ha ha.

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My lovely birthday fruit cake. ^-^

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Me with the cake. =D


Since, it is my 20th birthday, I decide that I want to come out with 20 facts of myself for my dearest readers to understand me better. Sometimes, I am really sick with the fact that many people find it difficult to understand me. =( After today, you should clear a few doubts of yours!



1. I do not enjoy saving at all. I do it for the sake of my future. Who does not want to enjoy life, eh? Well, planning is very important.

2. I day-dream most of the times during lessons. This is why I often ask teachers the same question which he/she might have just gone through. Actually, I day-dream most of the times when I stare into space. But, of course, I can be very serious if I need to. An article says that it is good to day-dream. Geniuses do this too. =D

3. I hate to do things at the last minute so I guess this is why I usually finish my tasks much earlier than many people. Erm. Yes. I am very reluctant to do things at the last minute unless I really have no choice.

4. I always have my own schedule in mind of what I should do. (If you realise, I do not have a hard copy of my schedule. On my hand phone, it only keeps records of the important dates.)

5. I am a fan of real spicy food.

6. I am usually a big eater.


7. I usually laugh at my secret jokes. This is why many people find me being silly for laughing at nothing. Ha ha

8. If I have a choice, I would want to be a hairstylist or even a performer (but I am too shy, la).

9. I am a perfectionist of myself because I cannot accept myself for making any mistake.


10. I love heart-felt handwritten cards because they are so sweet. (but it has been donkey years since I last received one.) Well, this is why I never fail to write or make a card for people for their birthday or any special reason. I hardly buy any.

11. I am a very soft-hearted person but it is not very easy to surprise me because sometimes I know/predict your plan earlier than you think or spoil it in my own hands. =/

12. When it comes to learning languages, I tend to be a very slow learner. So, my favourite subjects will be more hands-on. I still love mathematics, science and art & craft.

13. I am a right-handed person but I use my left hand to use hand phone.

14. I use my 6th sense to find my way. Well, there are times when my 6th sense is sleeping so I will lose my way! Actually, I lose my ways most of the times. Ha ha.

15. I am often on time and you are honoured to see me late, really. Nowadays, I usually use this smartly so as to not piss myself off. =D


16. My favourite phrases are, "Seriously, I think that", "I seriously think that", "I mean...", "What the hell", "Hell you", "What", "Very funny" and "Zhen de zhen de. Wo mei you pian ni!"(It means "Really, really! I never lie to you" ha. No one thinks that I lie in the first place. =/).

17. I am under-weight for most of my life, borderline under-weight for the rest and hardly hit the healthy range. Ha.

18. I prefer sweet food to spicy food.

19. I am scared of animals and creatures.

20. I tear when I get very angry. Well, when you see that, trust me, do not provoke me any further.


That's all folks!

Well, I still hope that I can celebrate my birthday with....... I have been waiting in vain. Will it ever happen?

Anyway, once again, thank you for all the people who celebrated with me! =D



I dreamnt of you at 2/06/2009 07:47:00 PM




Sunday, February 01, 2009



Happy Birthday to Me!

Hoho. I just joined a new club with a name starts with the number "2". Well, I am just a step nearer to my freedom.

For now, thank you for all your wishes be it through facebook, SMS or friendster, for people who celebrated with me and for people who gave me gifts. They are greatly appreciated! =D

I promise to write a detailed entry on this when I am free.



I dreamnt of you at 2/01/2009 08:41:00 AM