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This is a public blog of mine. Frequent posting is not expected.

Capricious Chu Er/21F
she is someone who..



~is a typical aquarian

~is extremely fragile

~plans ahead

~is extremely emotional and sensitive

~can be unforgiving(or rather would avoid)to people who use harsh,insensitive or/& irresponisible words on her

~is quite independent

~has high determination

~is simple yet complicated and deep

~can get very impulsive if anything goes out of her way

~does not express her real feelings/thoughts well

~spends a lot of time in her own thoughts

~usually means it when she mentions something for twice or more regardless of whether she says it in a serious or joking manner



~certainly feels very pissed off when one tries to act as if he/she understands her very well when it is not at all!

~certainly cannot stand people who commend about her behaviour when they are also doing the same thing!

~hates to be accused by people especially with no good reason!

~hates last minute work and/or work with no efforts put in!

~hates to be late


~wishes to get freedom soon

~wishes life is smoother than before

~wishes to be a good presenter/speaker

~wishes that her future is what she wants to persue



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Monday, May 21, 2007




Book recommendation time!


Even though I might be “flooded” with the activities I have, but not forgetting one of my favourite pastime-reading!

The book which I am going to recommend is “Plantation-A Lowcountry Tale” by Dorothea Benton Frank.

This novel is not totally sad but it will make you tear. It teaches about cherishing your loved ones especially your kin. I always believe that no matter how much your loved ones hurt you, you will eventually forgive him/her. I am not sure about others but I am one such person.

In the story, there was a misunderstanding between a mother and her children which caused her children to hate her for few decades of years. Later, when her daughter knew that her brother had some problems and so she wanted to find out. She then moved to where her mother and brother stayed. Both the mother and daughter never expected the short time they spent together could be so enjoyable. On the day her daughter went home, she found out that her husband betrayed her. Later on, she even found out that her husband had already betrayed her for quite a number of years and had high sex drive which he claimed sex and love were different. And so, he did not agree that he had betrayed her. This is so sad right? The daughter actually still loved him very deeply and her husband claimed that he loved her as deeply too. I feel that this is such a crap. Anyway, she and her son moved to stay with her mother for some time. At the last stage of her mother’s life, she found out about the misunderstanding they had. Her children always thought that her mother hated them. What a pity they only cleared the misundersanding at the last stage of her life.

Anyway, it is really good to read. When you feel stressed up or are feeling down, reading could calm your nerves down and make you stay focus-on that book. =p I know of some people who fall asleep after reading a few paragraphs. I am not trying to say they do not have any focus but rather this is not their pastime. As for me, once I start reading, it is very difficult to stop. I would request to myself after every chapter saying “One more chapter please. It will be the last one. I promise.” The mature or rational side of me would say “No, you have to sleep or start doing your work already.” But, the soft-hearted side of me usually gives in. It seems that it is rather difficult to keep to my own promises. But, reading is really good so it is actually alright, right? =D
Seriously, I do hope that when I retire or become a rich person, I would be able to spend a lot of time reading books. I do not like to shop so I would not use the money to shop for a lot of clothes excluding food unless it is necessary. I would donate the money which I owned to the charity or needy people or even give it to my kin who needed it.

This is one of the plans which I have. I love to do planning or rather day-dreaming when I have nothing on my mind. I know this will never come true.

I will definitely not like some rich people if I were one. Trust me, sometimes I really did feel like slapping them. Can’t they get a life of theirs? I am not trying to be violent but wanting to wake them up.

When you are successful in life, do think back how you were able to climb up so high and how you were being treated when you were trying to succeed. I guess you would not feel good. Treat people like how you want to be treated. I do hope that those haughty rich people could be more humble and stop looking down on poorer people or people of lower rank and think too highly of themselves. I will never ever respect them like how a human should be treated. I will never ever bootlick them because of the dirty money which they own. This is my principle. Although I might not be as successful or rich as them, I will never betray myself and let my parents or people who love me down and I will use own hands to build my own future.

Sometimes, I feel that people should be grateful to people who treated them badly. Because of their treatment, you actually unconsciously try to improve yourself so that they could accept you and you consciously want to prove them wrong.

P.S. What is written here is not directing at anyone whom I know.


I dreamnt of you at 5/21/2007 11:24:00 PM




Friday, May 18, 2007




Sister outing

During my last lesson, my sister messaged me and asked whether I wanted to go to the hawker opposite my secondary school to have lunch because she had the sudden urge to eat the western food. I wondered why did I agree to it but I went anyway. Noble Chu Er went home to take her sister's notes before meeting her as she wanted them to revise. =p Why noble you might ask. My bag was quite heavy today so I had to take more effort to walk and got to "walk" up to my house and walked to the bus stop.

I reached there earlier than her and I had to wait for about half an hour. I was not at all pissed off. I guess it was because my mood was not too bad and she is my sister. She gave me a treat on a plate of porkchop as my belated birthday present. Guess what my other gift from her was? It was her school shoes. As I did not want to waste money on a pair of shoes which I would only wear for 2months which was mend for work so I begged her to lend me her school shoes n promised that it would be my birthday present. But, why did I have to beg when it is not compulsory for JC student to wear? =(

Okay.

A plate of porkchop and a pair of shoes for two months V.S. a treat at Pasta Mania.

She was rather chatty today. She talked about her school life. She asked “do you what eye candy is?” I was stunned and said “huh?” She replied saying “what? You don’t even know what that is?” At that moment, I thought to myself “am I that outdated?” Then, she explained that it is actually someone whom you think is handsome and you actually spend a lot of time looking at. Her friends are also like her. She told me a lot about her school and I found them rather funny. Anyway, I realised that I am not so interested in guys, even handsome ones but not including cute ones. =p Maybe I should have an eye candy too? It sounds fun and exciting and more like a school life of a typical student. I really or rather still miss those times a lot especially in secondary school. But, it is very difficult to have eye candy in school especially when school is so big and we do not any fixed classroom. It sounds really fun and most importantly, it could be served as a purpose of going to school.

Anyway, recently, there is a question on my mind again. Do people prefer to have one best friend or five good friends? There is a cause of this though. I shall not talk about it here. I believe in focus. Everyone has limited focus. I am not a God which can multi-task so well. Well, I am trying to say I would rather treasure this one best friend than having so many. It is easier to show your concern on one than many. It is impossible to have an equal amount of attention on everyone. Most importantly, the possibility of you neglecting your friends is lesser. It is really hurtful to be left out by people when you are being asked to be in the group. I am someone who does not need so many friends. I am not that greedy. Most of the time, I would prefer going with one or two persons than a group of people. It is easier to talk unless I am really not in the mood for talking. What I have said might sound weird to the readers out there but do not forget that the domain name of this blog is weirdy-xtreme. =p


I dreamnt of you at 5/18/2007 11:53:00 PM




Thursday, May 10, 2007



Death

It was 22:37. I heard a vibration coming from my hand-phone. At first, I thought it was a new message. But, it was not but rather a call, an unexpected one. It was from my manager or rather ex manager. What she told me on the phone was even more unexpected.

A colleague or rather an ex-colleague committed suicide about 2 days ago. My mind went blank and I thought I heard it wrongly. My manager did not know and continued telling me the whole thing. She could not get over the fact that her grandmother passed away. After her death, she actually told her maid to kill her so that she could meet her grandmother. I worked with this colleague a few times before. She was a nice and friendly person. I did not get to interact with her much when I first worked with her because it was on Valentine’s Day and the shop was so busy and it was only my second day at work. Naturally, I was very unfamiliar with a lot of stuffs. I was quite shocked when she told me her problems when I worked with her the second time. I doubt that I have a friendly face especially towards people whom I am not close with. Few weeks passed and I was chatting with a colleague or rather an ex-colleague again. He told me that she started tearing when she told him her problems. I was shocked about everything but I thought nothing was wrong.

This piece of news affected me to the extent that I could not get to sleep last night. Uncontrollably, memories of me and her working together flashed back. I guess because it is my first time having someone whom I know, committed suicide therefore it affected my mood entirely. Even though she and I were not closed yet this could affect me. I wonder what if my loved ones were the ones, how worse would my mood gets? I could not imagine. I realised that I am afraid. I realised that it is very important to put others before you when making a decision.

Life is truly precious and fragile. I guess I would treasure my life even more. I realised how painful it is when someone left so it is important to take your life seriously or else your loved ones would be hurt by your actions.

P.S. This piece of news was published yesterday on newspaper


I dreamnt of you at 5/10/2007 11:28:00 PM