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Capricious Chu Er/21F
she is someone who..



~is a typical aquarian

~is extremely fragile

~plans ahead

~is extremely emotional and sensitive

~can be unforgiving(or rather would avoid)to people who use harsh,insensitive or/& irresponisible words on her

~is quite independent

~has high determination

~is simple yet complicated and deep

~can get very impulsive if anything goes out of her way

~does not express her real feelings/thoughts well

~spends a lot of time in her own thoughts

~usually means it when she mentions something for twice or more regardless of whether she says it in a serious or joking manner



~certainly feels very pissed off when one tries to act as if he/she understands her very well when it is not at all!

~certainly cannot stand people who commend about her behaviour when they are also doing the same thing!

~hates to be accused by people especially with no good reason!

~hates last minute work and/or work with no efforts put in!

~hates to be late


~wishes to get freedom soon

~wishes life is smoother than before

~wishes to be a good presenter/speaker

~wishes that her future is what she wants to persue



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Wednesday, April 29, 2009




Would you

If one day she is down, would you ever bring a stalk of sunflower for her to cheer her up?
If one day no one believes her, would you ever stand by her till the end of the world?
If one day she is happy, would you ever laugh with her till you are breathless?
If one day she smiles at you, would you ever smile at her too?
If one day she needs company from you, would you ever stop what you are doing and be her companion?
If one day she is having fun, would you join her to have fun too?


Will my prayers be heard again?



I dreamnt of you at 4/29/2009 07:52:00 PM




Monday, April 27, 2009




Extreme makeover?



Nono. I am just thinking of doing it. Seriously, whenever I look at myself into the mirror, I cannot stop telling myself that I am ugly. I was being told that I should not that do that to myself so I started telling myself, “I am pretty. I am pretty.” I stopped after saying three times because it is so difficult to lie to myself. Laugh out loud.

I do not like my face. I do not like how I dress up. I do not like my hair. =( But, money is always the issue so how am I going to dress myself up? Urgh! But, I am not that stingy when it comes to my loved ones – like my sis and certain friends (I think sis will deny it because she keeps telling me that I never buy anything for her. I really did so. =/) Perhaps, I should start hating them one day so that I can have more money for myself. =D

I seriously hate to wait. I cannot even wait for 5minutes so how am I going to wait for one month = thirty days = 720 hours = 43, 200 minutes? Actually, it is slightly less than that already but it is still very, very long. Everything is still very unpredictable. What if I get none of them? What should I do? I seriously need someone to tell me even though the future concerns me, not anyone of them out there.


I dreamnt of you at 4/27/2009 01:11:00 PM




Tuesday, April 21, 2009



Free Cone day!


Hoho. It is a free cone day! My sis and I went to the branch at Vivocity to get our free cone. =D Kenneth - a colleague - fetched me home after work. I went to settle some stuff and came out of the house again. It was amazingly fast - I mean the queue. Before sis reached there, I had already collected mine. =/ So, I went to queue up again after eating so that sis did not have to queue up for so long. After eating, we went to queue up again. All the favours are very nice! Yum~
DO YOUR MATH! How many cones did I take in total?

Ans: Bingo! 3. Yes, at the expense of my sore throat. Laugh out loud


I dreamnt of you at 4/21/2009 08:01:00 PM




Monday, April 06, 2009



A day without Music (?)


I am not trying to imply that I became deaf today but rather, my beloved/precious earpiece was not with me. It is the inward plug (if I did not get the term wrong) but of course, it is a cheap one. = p I only use 2 types of earpiece; inward plug and hook-on earpiece. These are the ones which will not fall off from my ears! So, just for today and even tomorrow, I had/have to use the basic earpiece which really irritates me a lot. In every 30 seconds or so, I had/have to adjust its position to ensure that it does not fall off from my ears.

I am not a spoiled brat or musician. I just need the company of music to keep me awake through out the long journey on the MRT. Imagine having to travel from Queenstown to Punggol and take a LRT from there? I HATE IT! I am not a fan of long MRT ride. I would not have complained so much if it was a long bus ride, instead. Reason being, there are people or surroundings for me to admire at. Ha. I love to daydream a lot but the tendency of me doing that is reduced to its minimum level and falling asleep is increased to its maximum level on the MRT. I think by now, I am an expert for sleeping on the MRT especially after a long day at work or doing project. There was once when a very nice gentleman actually stood up and let me have his seat so that I could sleep better.

Today was not exactly a pleasant day for me because before I started my day, I was already so irritated. Reason being, Dad knocked on my door very loudly to wake me up when I could have slept for 40minutes more. I think they (dad and mum) rotated their duties. This did not occur for the first time. =/ Both the morning and earpiece incidents affected me so much that I had no appetite for my breakfast. I had to swallow my food down even before I chewed them. In the end, my stomach was in pain. =(

Seriously, I still think that I would have stomach cancer or related illness in the future because I could have stomach upset for no reason that my face would even turn green. I went to consult 2 doctors before but they had no idea why. o.o I gave up and bear with the pain (include zero complaints from myself, okay, occasionally.= p).


I dreamnt of you at 4/06/2009 11:29:00 PM




Friday, April 03, 2009



The days

1st day

There was a hiccup on my 1st day of work. It was real bad because I was late for 10minutes! Luckily, I was not late for my lesson. = p Ah. How hate people being late yet I was still late. Nono. It will not happen again. It was just due to my miscalculation of my traveling time.

Yea. I was supposed to reach that school at 10 a.m. to meet my boss but at 9.54 a.m., I was still at Punggol MRT station! GOSH! I quickly called him – of course, he did not sound pleased – and informed him that I would be late for 10 minutes. THIS IS NOT THE END! I was lucky enough to get a cab within 2 minutes – despite the fact that a bus driver said that it was difficult to get a cab there but I could try my luck and I did! Anyway, the taxi driver had no idea where the school was, let alone the exact road name. o.o So, I called my boss again. When I thought everything was solved, he said that he could not see where the school was. So, I suggested opening the door and asked the passer-bys. The taxi fare was… $4.60. What the hell. If I had one more minute, I swear that I would have bargained with him and reduced it to $4.00. Laugh out loud. Okay. Perhaps not that low.


IT IS STILL NOT THE END! I was supposed to teach a typing program but when we tried looking for it and clarifying it with the technician, then we realized that it was not installed. NOT blaming anyone! I was okay with it. What I was not okay with was that I did not make any preparation to teach the hardware (e.g. the monitor) and Microsoft word. o.o

My boss helped me a little here and there so everything was fine and they learned something from my lesson. Phew~

It is really not easy being a teacher. I finally understood why some teachers kept complaining they were feeling so warm or perspiring a lot.

WAY TO GO! It is just the beginning.

Hey. Perhaps, I should try teaching kids more because I really enjoy it. They are just so adorable.




2nd day
I reached the school earlier than the meeting time so in the end I had to wait for 35minutes. o.o After more than 15minutes, the girl next to me finally talked to me. Okay. It sounds silly but I just refused to make my first move that day. It turned out that she was from my Polytechnic and she was a pretty nice lady. For my morning, I just had to help here and there and walked around to help the students. Sadly, I was not an expert at robotics yet so what I could do was pretty limited. =/ I AM STILL LEARNING!

After that, I took a bus to Bukit Batok MRT station and took a train down to Clementi MRT station. Clementi has changed a lot that I could not recognize it and nearly got lost. Yes, I forever lose my ways. Anyway, I walked around there as I volunteered to help a colleague to look around for food as he would reach later than me from other school. You see, I was worried that he would not have enough time to eat. After buying, I saw a Secondary school senior but refused to walk over and say Hi. =/ (Okay. For some reason, I was not outgoing or being weird.) After which, I walked back to the MRT station. While waiting for the colleague to finish using the toilet, I saw Benjy. We were quite surprised as we did not expect it at all. He said that the impression I gave him is like we were strangers. Sorry. =/ I think I was really too tired and surprised. Sorry. =/

I think the hero for today was my colleague. Without him, I would have lost my way! Why? I actually told him that we should walk the opposite way to the school. Then, he asked if I read the map from the MRT station and I said yes. Ha ha. Anyway, I told him that I am bad at reading maps and recognizing my way. Ah. Yes, he was trying to test me before telling me the correct way. I seriously need to attend a lesson on my North-South-East-West direction. = /

Anyway, we reached there very early and had to wait for more than half an hour. Luckily, I am still able to communicate with him even though sometimes I pretended that I was listening for I was really too exhausted.

What were the exciting things during my lesson? Oh ya. I taught Macromedia Flash. I remembered that a student actually tried to challenge me or something so I said in a stern voice, “You seriously want to challenge me?” It really scared him off and he did not dare to challenge me anymore. For another, he was being very mischievous so I threatened him by saying something like I will make sure that he would not be allowed to step into my class again. Hope that nothing will happen to me. o.o It does not sound like me at all. How good if I always do that when I am being taken advantage of or being bullied? My boss said I am the soft type of person when dealing with students so I am trying to work on this. I am serious when I say that I am going to be a hard-hearted person. Apparently, I am improving – not referring to how I treat my students. One more thing, I am still speaking very softly when I think that I speak very loudly already. That was what my boss commented. He asked me to work on my voice. How? I work on this for 3 years already but it is still the same. =/

3rd day

The class was a little hyperactive but not that attentive. 1 girl cried in class because she claimed that she could not do what was given to her. The fact is, she did most of them already. So, I put my right hand over her shoulders saying, “You are doing very well and should keep up the good work. Give yourself credit for this, ok?” By then, it did calm her down then I helped her a little more. I remember that the monitor and monitress were over-helpful that I often had to ask them to do their work instead of helping me to supervise the students. Ha ha.

4th day

I was so angry at myself. I thought the lesson start at 10.30 until 10minutes before the starting time. So, there I rushed to the taxi stand. I asked 3 groups of people if they could let me board the taxi first – by then, it was already 7minutes to the starting time.

1st: “I am sorry. We are rushing for time too.” (Okay. Acceptable but I reckon that it would be as rush as mine. Ha)
2nd: (The worst of all. Before I finished my sentence, she rolled her eyes from the sight of me even when I was near to tears already. This is what I call, hard-hearted people.)
3rd: “Where are you heading to?” (I replied saying, “XX School.”) “Oh okay. We can share taxi there as I am heading there as well.” (She said without smiling.)

Sigh. Where are the nice people? In the end, I was about 1-2 minutes late and the students had not arrived yet. I was quite lucky, actually. I should really stop being so muddle-headed! =/

Anyway, I met up with Jethro after that because he is going to be enlisted on the 13th. Well, we would not meet up so soon if I knew that 13th is going to be 2weeks later. =/ Yes, being muddle-headed AGAIN but for the good thing. =D We went for a ice-cream treat, no, I gave him a treat - he chose 1 waffle with 2 scopes of ice-cream on 2 conditions - no durian favour and must be different from what I chose so that I could try. = p The shop was introduced by Andrew (Goh) - a poly classmate. We were satisfied with the treat because the ice-cream is so special. =D Before that, I saw a mentoring friend or rather junior (JP). He was very nice because he accompanied me to that shop. Without him, I would have lost my way again. Yes, he waited till Jethro came. =D He even bought me a bottle of Green tea. =D

Oh. Alex and I promised to go for an ice-cream feast! Hee. IF anyone has any good recommendation, do tell me! =D



I dreamnt of you at 4/03/2009 01:19:00 PM