Fabulous Friday!



It had been a busy yet great day because I had about four interviews today. The more interviews I have, the happier I am because it means that my time will pass by much faster. And also, my manager will have lesser time to stress me to source for more candidates for the assignments. =p

The freelance IT assistant that my company hired to solve our hardware and software issues came today. GOSH. Before that, my boss kept promoting him to me. She said that he is a very nice guy, only 25 years old and already gotten his degree. Laugh out loud. When he came, my boss AND manager tried to introduce me to him that I wanted to go into hiding. I felt so shy. No, in fact, both of us felt so shy. Maybe I felt shyer than he. In the end, both he and I did not manage to talk to each other. I cannot deny that he looks like a nice guy. No harm knowing a new friend, eh? Well, we were too shy to talk to each other. Perhaps, he did not want to know me since I am so loud in my company. =/ It was my third time seeing him.

At 4.30pm, I knocked off from work because my manager and I needed to set off to deliver mooncakes to her client. ^^ However, unsurprisingly, we only left at 4.45pm because my manager always has too much unfinished work to do. *shrug*

I finally met up with those clients whom I always hear over the phone or even see their names when my candidates’ resumes are sent to them. I was even more excited to meet the VP of HR because his voice is very soothing over the phone. Anyway, to my disappointment, he was not the hunk I always imagined but an uncle (but more handsome and younger than my dad. =p) My manager embarrassed me (again) by telling him that I am always excited when I hear his voice. ROAR. How many times must she embarrass me today? =/ We were on the 40th floor (not the highest floor though) of the building and that VP showed us the good view of the F1 track. Actually, I did not feel that comfortable seeing or knowing anything to do with F1 because it reminded me of something which I try very hard not to recall. Sigh. Well…

Anyway, all the deliveries were done slightly before 6pm so I was able to head down to my tutee’s house much earlier. It also means that I could leave her house earlier. =D Yea. I left there at least 20minutes than usual. ^^

Although I still feel the emptiness and sadness in me, I did not feel like crying for the whole of today. This is a good way to end the last working day of the week, isn’t it? ^^

I will be happier if I am being missed for a tiny winy bit, really.

Wrong move VS Gullible



I had another encounter on how I should not be soft-hearted. Well, a candidate was supposed to turn up for interview today but he did not. After calling him for several times, he still did not pick up. Until one hour later, he finally called back.

He claimed that he met up with an accident therefore he could not pick up my call just now and I immediately believed him. I even told him to rest well and take his time to call me. He kept apologizing and assured me that he would call back tomorrow. So, how could I not believe him?

After telling the whole story to my manager and colleagues, they felt that I should not believe him.

But, I still insisted on trusting him when they work there much longer than I do. Erm. Wait. Not that he is handsome (which I can’t know since he did not attach his photo to his resume), but through his tone, I felt that he was telling the truth.

Then, a colleague said if let say, my boyfriend broke up with me because of a third party and came back to me on one fine day and apologized, the chance that I would forgive and patch back with him is high. Guess what? I think she is quite right. I am nut. I am hopeless. No matter how many times I am being disappointed and hurt, I still believe that everyone is nice and kind-hearted when many are not at all. How pathetic.


Anyway, for some reason, I felt rather emotional for the whole day. On my way to the tutee’s house, I tried very hard to swallow my tears down.


Once again, some make me feel that I have no rights to feel sad.

Count myself lucky



My office is constructed in a way that it has two levels. I sit at the first level. Today, I reminded myself again that I am being lucky for sitting there as my colleagues and I joke among ourselves everyday. Through a colleague, I realized that I am not the only one making mistakes for my resume. Yes, I know it is not a good way to encourage myself but it just makes me feel a little better. The good thing is, my manager does not criticize when I make mistakes for my resume. But, I always feel very disappointed with myself when being told that I made mistakes like missing out certain information. I can be so disappointed that the desire of giving up my job is so strong but I know that I cannot do so until next July. I will continue to work hard!^^


Anyway, my manager told me to deliver mooncakes to some clients on this Friday with her. Ha. I am secretly happy about it because it means that I will have a shorter day at work. =D Plus, it is a local bank which I have not been to before. ^^ I guess I will be rather excited about the trip because it is my first time doing so. I must remind myself to be more lady-like when I go there. =p

How nice it is if I own a garden filled with sunflowers? It is even nicer if I can receive it from the love of my love. Ha. I am dreaming again! *roll eyes*

As wounds are healed, new wounds are uncovered. Too many words are left unsaid. Too much thoughts are never known. The hurt and pain are unbearable but one day, sunshine will do its justice by coming back.

Absence from the cyber world

Nearly fainted



I have this male candidate who has been looking for jobs for a few months already. Based on his working experience and qualification, he should be able to get a job easily but luck has never been on his side. Finally, he has gotten a job so he has to come down to sign a committment letter. He came and looked for me during my lunch time when I told him to come at 1.15pm.

My manager told me to attend to him and I did. I could not remember how he looks like so I asked, "You are XXX?"

He said, "Ya. You don't remember me ah?"

Me: "Yea. I have not seen you for more than a month already."

He: "Like that ah. I drop by more often lo."

Laugh out loud. Nearly fainted on the spot.

Me: "Erm. No need la. Ha ha."


ROAR. Another weird candidate.

Monday blues


Today had been a very busy day for me to the fact that it seemed like I had been rushing for the whole day. No kidding but I like it because there was very minimal time for unnecessary
thoughts.

Ah. My colleagues helped me to list down a list of criteria of my dream guy. The list goes longer everyday as I meet or see more male candidates. It is quite funny though.


They are (suggested by them):

- The smell must be pleasant to me. (It can really be a turn-off to me if he does not smell nice. All right. Perhaps, I may stink too because sis often says I stink. =/ So, I shall agree that this point of my dream guy is true.)

- Big nose. (Just because I told them that a friend told me that a guy with big nose means that he has a big penis. Ha ha. SO, now they keep insisting that I like guys with big nose because they will have big penis. Please! I mean, I seriously don’t care if the love of my life has big penis. So what if he does? o.O I want to emphasis that I did not make up any of these!)

- I can’t remember the rest for now.=/


My evening at work ended a little not so well because I made mistakes for my resumes again. I really thought it was fine before sending it to my colleague. In the end, she spotted two mistakes from it. =( At that moment, I felt so ashamed and deeply disappointed with myself. Why am I always so muddle-headed and careless? Sigh. I hate it, really.

On my way to tuition, I felt like crying again. I am not too sure whether it was the overwhelming of my work or that matter that made me feel like crying but I just felt like doing so.

Well, there are some reasons that cheer my night up. One of the reasons is Cedrick has Escape vouchers that cost $8/person! GOSH. It is so cheap! I have been asking around for someone to accompany me for years but to no avail. But what, I will be going there soon for the first time in my life! Hee. I always love the roller coaster or just anything that makes me feel like screaming out loud even though I hardly do so. =D


There is another reason that made me smile and thought that it is rather sweet at the same time. Not mentioning anything here though.

Good night world!

Running for my dear life


Once every few months, I would have such a nightmare that requires me to run for my life in my dream.

This time round, I remember that I was running for my life with a guy. I was so frightened that people who were chasing after us would catch up with us. The great thing is, whether I am running alone or with others, the chaser(s) has never caught up with me.

I did some research and realise that the dream shows that I am running away from somebody/something who/which is hurting me in my waking life. I am avoiding it at all cause. I am being advised to confront the chaser(s) when I see him/her/them again so that I will know what I am running away from.

I guess I never enjoy being chased by someone/something because it is scary to me. It has never been a pleasant dream to me. =(


Another nightmare that I sometimes have is to be fallen from a height with fear. It would feel very real. It indicates a lack of control, insecurity, and/or lack of support in your waking life. You may be experiencing some major struggle and/or overwhelming problem. It may denote that you have failed to achieve a goal that you have set forth for yourself.

I guess so too. Sigh.

2 For 1 Swensen buffet + New hairstyle!


Work had been slightly busy today because I had 3interviews today. After which, I went to Chapter 2 which I had already placed an appointment with the hairstylist introduced by Vivian for my haircut. Initially, I only wanted to spend extra money on hair treatment as I was quite reluctant to pay more than $100 for my haircut. But, she tried to persuade me to colour my hair but I said no because I prefer my hair colour. After which, she tried to persuade me to do rebonding because hair treatment does not make a significant difference. Anyway, I gave in by doing soft rebonding – the cheapest one ($144) – and I also added Keratin Oil ($28) for my hair treatment exclusive of GST. I know it sounds crazy!


To summarize a long story, she added some cream on my hair for more than the planned timing and put a machine to heat my hair. After which, another hairstylist washed my hair with shampoo and conditional. Then, she dried my hair with a dryer for at least ten minutes. And, the same procedure was repeated except for drying of my hair because she put Keratin Oil. She washed it away after twenty minutes and dried my hair again. Woah. The hairwash was very comfortable because she helped me to massage my head. ^^By then, more than two hours were gone. Only then, I started my haircut. The only criteria I gave was to have my hair at least touching my shoulders as I really did not want my hair to be too short.

Poor Alex waited for 3hours 15minutes. Didn’t I say that he is my sweetest friend on earth? He was so tired after all the waiting.

Finally, we made our way down to ION orchard for our 2 for 1 Swensen Buffet! Wow. It is really very big. I think Alex was not so happy because I walked in my usual speed – very fast for most people. I guess I should understand because when someone is in a bad mood or feeling tired, everything seems to be moving slowly. Once we saw the queue, Alex had an urge not to queue up. However, once we stepped into the shop and saw the menu, Alex’s mood totally changed!

There were so many ice cream favour, cakes, brownies, toppings and even chocolate and cheese fondue for strawberries and marshmellow! GOSH! How could we resist it? We could not wait to start on any of those!

Once, we actually challenged ourselves (suggested by him)to eat a very sour favour ice cream. GOSH.


I hesitated for a few minutes before putting everything into my mouth.


My first instant expression upon putting everything into my mouth. Cold and sour! OUCH~


See~ Alex was being cocky.


I reckoned that he was acting cool. *roll eyes*



I was trying to exaggerate. Ha.


My new hairstyle!

Under the sunlight! Ah~ This reminds me of sunflowers!


Taken in the toilet. Ho ho.

I like this picture because my eyeliner can be seen! =p

My hair has become so short now but I like it because it seems to be much neater now.



Sis and I will be going there on the last Saturday of this month! Hee.

A better today



I read Cedrick’s blog before I went to work this morning and it made my morning an emotional one. =/ Perhaps, I am not as brave as him.


It was a busy day at work but in a good way. As usual, there is bound to be something funny taken place at my office. My manager told me to call a candidate. After taking a glace at his photo, I was so shocked. I thought he looked quite manly and his name is “Rain” Then, I realized that he is a mixed blood. O.O Woohoo. So, I told the intern student about it and that I am “Sunshine” Ha ha ha. After which, my manager told me to be fiercer to him by saying “I am thunder”. We kept laughing at it till I dared not call him because I might laugh. Anyway, I still had to call. Well, he did not pick up my call after two attempts. Fifteen minutes later, the intern student turned to me and said, “OMG. He sounds so good! He said, “May I know who called? I am Rain” Laugh out loud. I could not stop laughing that I had to try very hard to calm myself down. I think his voice can really blow me off that even “thunder” could not withstand its – erm – charm. Okay. I am crapping. Seriously, I was stumbling through out the conversation that I really wonder if he could understand what I was telling him. Oh. He speaks with a slang.

BUT, I still prefer the “17” guy. =D Now, everyone knows that I keep looking at guys. Well, I tell them that it is my source of motivation, do you believe me?


Well, I have never in a minute forgotten the promise I made so, no, I am just looking at them for a moment of entertainment. Ha. I am not silly but just want to uphold the belief I have. I will wait.


Oh. I told a lie today that made me blush because my whole face felt so hot. My manager had an urgent order so I thought anyone can apply for it. Therefore, I quickly made a phone call to my candidate and I suddenly recalled about the qualification criteria. So, I put the call on hold and asked my manager. To my horror, I can’t try her for it because of her qualification. o.o GOSH. I said, “SHIT. I have to tell a lie.” Sigh. Anyway, I did it but with difficulty because I really do not like to lie unless I really have no choice. =(

After work, I went to my tutee’s house for tuition. While walking to her house, I was fighting the urge to cry because I did not want to smurge my mascara and anyone to see me crying. Well, tears did well up in my eyes. Sigh. Whatever. Anyway, when I saw them at the doorstep, his dad said that the tuition is postponed to next Thursday, not today. So, I told him that the message he sent says it was today. Whatever. I gave a fake smile and walked away after him apologizing. My tutee looked well but not sick at all. Seriously, I wonder what her parents are thinking about. I am quite worried that she will not get promoted to Primary three with her current results. *shake head*



I am still missing school and youuuuuuuuuu. ='(

Another not so joyful update



I am just back home from dinner with dad and mum. My tuition is postponed to tomorrow because she is sick.

Today was a really bad day because I cried in the office. I think I seriously need a cry. I mean, I have been trying hard not to cry for many days and there she went nagging at me again. So, I broke down. I was pissed off with her. I know I should not but I just could not control my tears. I think I am mentally tired. But, I am still going to stay strong for people who really care so much for me all this while. I really love you people!

I seriously can’t bring myself to respect people (boss or even leader) who actually talk behind their staff/members back. Seriously, if you are unhappy with any area, shouldn’t you voice it out instead of expecting your staff/member know about it? This benefits both you and I because none of us is perfect so there is always rooms for improvement. It is totally disgusting that you talk behind your staff/members back and pretend everything is okay. You are a disgrace to our society and show that you have poor leadership quality!

Of course, there is still something positive about today. Like, I interviewed a very attractive looking guy with big eyes, acceptable built and height. The sight of him made me smile uncontrollably but he did not give me the effect which Nat Ho had on me. =p I hope that he will get the position I am trying him for so I can see him again. Oh. In the midst of the interview while my manager was telling him the job scope, I suddenly remembered what Cedrick told me about my perfect match. He told me that I should look out for guys whose birth day falls on the 8th (best match), 17th or 26th. So, I quickly peered at his birth date and smiled because it falls on the 17th. Ha ha ha. I smiled uncontrollably again and quickly stopped as I remembered that he was sitting right in front of me. I am very sure that he caught me smiling. =/ My manager always thinks that I work to look at guys because I will make every little comments about my or even my colleague's male candidates. =p

Morning entry

I had a good chat with Cedrick last night. Perhaps, like what he said, I should go out and enjoy myself and face the reality. Sigh. Luck is never on my side. I like my sunday job so I am reluctant to let go now. My tutee likes me so I will feel guilty to let go. Tell me, which is better, being hard-hearted or soft-hearted? I have been avoiding what I am supposed to face by making myself busy. I think it is hard to let go until I am being heard by you. Is it so hard to listen to what I have to say?

This reminds me of what happened when I was ten years old. My 2nd uncle (my dad's second eldest brother) was on his deathbed and my granny was at his side. My granny told him to sleep with ease because we would look after his family and she used her palm to close his eyes. I guess those were the words which he wanted to hear before going off peacefully.

For me, I just want to be heard. It has been a month and I am still holding onto it as strong as ever. No, I can't face it until you hear me out and until we have a chat.

A better day

Well, I got into my office with the usual “just another work day” mood. I think I really enjoy talking to the two intern students and one of them is sitting right in front of me. They will be leaving in about five weeks’ time. I have a feeling that I will feel sad about it. =/ Another usual event will be the bickering between my manager and I which cause my colleagues to laugh at us. Sometimes, my manager will even laugh to tears. You can see what a clown I am. Either I am being too muddle-headed, the things I say or the way I laugh that cause all the laughter in the first level. I think I am born to make others laugh. o.O It must be due to my child-like character. I am still young at heart! =D

Ever since that matter, I just have the urge to write down my thoughts whenever I can even when I just wake up from my sleep. There must always be a start if I really want to open myself up. Sometimes, when I read through my blogs, I feel that what I wrote differs from how I usually behave. Yes, I cry easily but I feel quite uneasy to cry in front of people. Did I say that I will not cry in front of anyone unless I am really, really down or upset?

Anyway, my work day ended well even though I had to do half an hour of OT to finish up my work and wait for my manager to finish her work.

Oh ya. I just received an invitation to Cedrick and Meryl’s 21st birthday celebration. They actually customized the card. So sweet of them! I have a feeling that Meryl wrote the details and Cedrick added in the funny parts. It seems like everyone is holding a big 21st birthday celebration. But, I still think that a quiet birthday celebration is more ideal for me due to many reasons. Reasons like, may not have the time for the planning, really doubt that my family will turn up and may not have the time to talk to all my friends and everyone belongs to different clique so it will be a little awkward for some. I seriously do not mind meeting new people but I don’t really fancy big group gathering.

GOOD NEWS! My dad allows me to stay overnight on their birthday. I am so happy because it is my first time doing it openly. ^^ You guys are so honoured! Guess what I said? I said, “I am still young. So, do you really expect me to do all these when I turn 31 or 41?” Ha. As usual, he will always add on, “Must love yourself” Meaning, not to have sex with anyone. o.o I won’t! My policy is to give my first time to the love of my life. Eh. Don’t laugh at me. I am really serious about it. =/

Oh ya. A colleague wanted to buy condoms for the Chinese custom wedding to make the “brothers” do silly action. Ha. I got really excited over “condoms” because I have not really seen or touch it before. The only memory I have is during Secondary 2, the boy sitting next to me actually brought condoms to school. I only knew about it after he got a scolding from my teacher and I only got a glance at it for a few seconds. Perhaps, my friends are really innocent or they feel that they will scare me off by having any indecent conversation with me. Anyway, some tried and they could see that I am not comfortable with it. See, I am so pure and innocent, how would I have sex with people? Okay, perhaps I may due to my soft-heartedness. But, touch wood. I can’t give in due to this. No way man.

Somehow, I am still feeling the emptiness. I am a very stubborn individual (a better word will be, determined) so if I don't do what I want or plan to do, I will not give up until I get it done. Yes, I am not totally okay. Like what Alex said, it will be so unlike me if I get over it so quickly. True.

Moody Monday


Yesterday was a hell day for me. I was extremely moody for the whole day and practically dragging myself to all the places. There were a few reasons that caused my moodiness. The one that caused me to nearly break down is what took place in the office. Basically, I got all the blames and being told off for something which I did but not decided by me and when I was not the only person doing that. In a simpler term, I was just following instructions, maybe blindly. At that moment, I nearly wanted to run out of the office to cry but I thought that it would cause too much attention from the other colleagues so I had to remain where I was. I could only sit there and swallow all my tears. I can’t give up. I need to stay strong for the next 10 months. I have been through something much worse than this so this should be nothing to me.

Many things are left unsaid and I am praying hard everyday for a miracle to happen. Like, what if I suddenly left this world? No, I am not being pessimistic because there were relatives and friends who suddenly left me, as in dead. You really have to go through this to know how much shock it brought to me. I was left in a shock state for at least a week for each death. For one particular death, I had nightmare everyday for at least a week. I guess I have to make a point to share something with some people.

My 2nd greatest fear is people I know, love or care leaving me forever, be it from this Mother earth or my life. I guess I would do anything to make everything back to normal again. I know this is silly but it is really painful to experience it.



I had a dream last night. In that dream, everything was back to normal and I was really glad and happy. When awoken from that dream, reality struck in and brought heartache to me.

He is only 25?(EDITTED)


I just realised that Nat Ho is only 25! I still cannot forget the fact that he is the first guy who made me scream out loud when I first saw him at my school! I thought that he was really very handsome and cool looking. No, I believe that he is still very attractive! But, according to the horoscope, aquarius and virgo do not compliment each other so I can only admire him. Oh no! What am I talking about? Anyway, to be safe, I will never date men of certain horoscopes. By the age of 13, I have already known which sign I should date and which sign is a no-no to me. = p I KNOW that I should not rely on it but this is a way to protect myself by preventing less possibility of breaking up with the other half. Good enough reasoning? =D


10:07AM:

As my colleague whom I met up with this morning stays at the extreme North area so I made my way down to Serangoon MRT this morning to take taxi to the Hougang MRT to fetch her to the call center. When I was about to reach there, she said that she would only reach Hougang MRT at 8.15am. Therefore, I decided to miss a few cabs as it should take only 5minutes to reach Hougang MRT from Serangoon MRT. So, I board one at about 8.08 am. and he agreed to fetch me to two places. GOSH. Little did I know that he actually did not know his way so he took slightly more than 10minutes to Hougang MRT. It was quite worrying as we must reach our work place at 8.30am! My supervisor would slaughter us alive if we were late. The journey to our workplace gave us several heart attacks too because he did not know his way. SIGH. In the end, we reached there at about 8.32am and I saw my manager's car. O.O I thought that we were going to get it. But, to our surprise, the first thing she said to me was, "Hey! Chu Er! Long time no see!" - FYI, she usually doesn't come on weekend. A second later, she asked, "Did you come yesterday?" I said, "Yes, I did. Everything is so confusing now!"


I thought that working with a group of aunties will be very bad as older people tend to be very stubborn but it turns out that they are very helpful and friendly! Don't think that they are old
so they don't know anything. The fact is, when you tell them a location, they can quickly tell you which driver to assign to. I am very much impressed by how they speak to the customers. What we are better at is definitely our PC skill. Oh. Mr. boss is sitting right beside me now. And, I opened too many windows that he wants me to close them. =( So, I closed some and opened them as new tags. = p I am very rebellious, right? I think I am always so fated to sit beside "big" people. Did I say that I have to sit beside my manager for my full-time job as she wants to train me? I wish to tell her that she is wasting her time because I will leave by next june. =/ Never mind! I will learn as much as I can as it will benefit my future. I have too much to improve on.



11:00pm:

I had a great time working with my colleagues even though we had to answer an average of 3calls at every minute. =) Some drivers were really crude. I got scolded by one of them until I was really so dumbfounded. He used very harsh words like, “All of you are so useless”, “All of you are so slow” or “Aiyo..You are so blur until…” Trust me that he was practically shouting at me over the phone when I did not do anything wrong. All I could say was, “Ahh..”, “Erm..”, “I am sorry..” or “We have really tried our best” Well, my aunty colleague told us to ignore them because some of them are just like this.

I ask myself why I should go through this agony. My answer is, to make myself stronger and ignore negative comments about me. But, it is hard especially when these words come from your loved ones or people you care about. Sigh. Anyway, I will never see that driver whom I like most. Before I left, he actually looked for me and disturbed me for one last time before he drove off. Ha. He loved to call me "Ben Dan No. 1" because I am really quite muddle-headed. I actually felt like crying when he drove off. =/
He was really very nice because he had never scolded me for making any mistake but just joked about it. =) This world needs more people like him.


I finally changed my blog song and I like its lyrics a lot.


Just for you.

Sunny Saturday! (EDITTED!)


Somehow, I was/am so glad that yesterday’s tuition was cancelled as the tutee had a family dinner. Although she is cute and pretty, she is a monster to me. You have to teach her to know it. I certainly do not mind having less income if it means that I have to drag myself to her house on every Mon, Wed and Fri night. I am praying hard that her parents will tell me to stop teaching any of the subjects so it will become two nights per week instead. It will also mean that I will have more time! Okay, not significantly much but still mean something to me!

Anyway, I went for something which I knew what my decision was going to be and it became clearer when I reached my destination. I had not felt so nervous and uneasy for a long time. However, I think that I was brave enough to reject it. I cannot imagine having to go through that uneasiness if I were to say, “Yes”.

As time worn on, I am starting to worry who to trust in that ‘place’. Yes, I am always a joker in that 'place' by making everyone laugh like mad everyday but I am keeping watchful eyes on some. Okay, perhaps some will start to tell me, “Don’t be so sensitive” or “Don’t think so much”. Well, I feel alone in that place. But again, it is nothing compared to a year ago which I was so frightened and tearful every single day for a year. It was certainly an experience but I seriously hope and pray that it will never happen in my life ever again because it was a really bad nightmare.

I miss school so muchhhhhhhh! I really can’t wait for next year to come. Perhaps, when exams are nearing, I would start to complain that it is better to work. I have been working since last week of March so it certainly helps me to change the perspective of working and studying. For working, you must perform your best everyday for everyone to see. For studying, it is your own business. The worse you score, the happier some people are. Get what I mean? Ha!


(ADDED)
As usual, I chose my favourite window seat on the bus and I was sitting behind this old man. Not that he was handsome but rather he was making weird noises and movements that attracted my attention. More than half way through my journey, I saw him digging his nose. The worse is, he placed his nose dirt at the side. Oh my God! I felt so uneasy and disgusted at that moment that I immediately changed to another seat. EEK! Even at a distance, I still could see two pieces of nose dirt there!

After work, I went home to have a quick lunch and slept for 50minutes. After which, I went to the call center to work for four hours as I agreed to help my supervisor just for this Saturday. Oh God. It was hell. I had to pick up calls at every minute! As it was considered my first day of work after the merger of the two companies so I kept making mistakes. o.o Now, I have to adjust myself to this busy call center life when it was so slack in the past. =/ Well, I think it is a good learning experience for me. Another hell day for me tomorrow! Oh ya. I think my supervisor was bravo because she really has her way of dealing with rude drivers. Those drivers are rude and crude because they will use vulgarity to scold us. =( I will be very angry if any one does that to me and I will get pissed off quite quickly. Shouldn’t they treat us with respect too when we are all colleagues even though we do not work together? They are worse than our own drivers! Another driver is leaving our company. I will miss him because he is really a nice guy!

Peace


I just read my private blog and realized that I have been quite upset for the past one year. (FYI, I usually only post sad entries in my private blog.) Somehow, I wonder why I never put my words into action and cause myself in such a miserable state. Somehow, I am really thankful and touched that I am not forgotten by friends (even unexpected friends) who show concerns to me and willing to spend some of their precious time telling me that it is not worth it over that *. Perhaps, I was too upset to see it but now, I do. Now, I am no longer tearful but angry, disappointed and glad. I have found peace in myself. I am going to move on for real, i.e. to put my words into action this time. I am not going to be a puppet whose life is being manipulated by you and not going to be soft again. If I do, I seriously don’t see who is sillier than I am. I mark my words! Stop thinking so highly of yourself!