Dog-eat-dog world


I think it is really time for me to face the reality. It has never occurred to me that the world is that scary – yes, it was already scary to me but I think it is scarier to me now.

I was just telling a friend about my hope to get into my dream university. He told me that with my character, it is not a suitable place for me to study there, I will surely get bullied or being taken advantage of. Seriously, if you tell me that I have 100% of chance to get into there now, I will be hesitating. I am a poor player in politics. I want everything to be straight-forward and frank. I dislike dishonesty. I am also reluctant to lie about my results just to get myself a place in university. Not my style. I want to do it base on my capability.

Sigh. Why? I know this world is not exactly what I want it to be. I am getting disappointed, very disappointed actually. Can doing voluntary work allow me to survive for the rest of my life? I doubt so. But, I do not mind being poor for the rest of my life as long as I do not have to face cruel and inconsiderate people. Looking at how some people behave, I seriously feel like laughing out loud and knocking some senses into them. I hate them a lot, I seriously do. If there was God up there, why is it that he created them? Can someone answer my question?

I am getting the feeling that I will not survive well when I really start working.


Thanks for reminding me. =)