Something to ponder on



I had a very bad day at work because I got shouted at for making a mistake that I did not realize and never being told over the past three months. At that moment, I was in shock. I was never heard. Am I really so insignificant and untrustworthy that I am not heard when I really want and hope to? Maybe I am not clear enough in my explanation but I did read everything to the candidates. I really mean everything and even gave explanation so how can it be not detailed? Maybe that is how that place works. When someone makes a mistake, pride is not taken into consideration. I can never forget the detail of the email that was being sent to everyone when a staff made a mistake for the first time. Maybe what is more surprising about the today’s matter is, I was being shouted at by someone whom I adore and respect. Sorry to say that I may have changed my opinion from that moment onwards.

Today marked the second time I cried in the office due to how I was being treated. Something I did different was, I walked out of the office and cried.

I thought I was doing fine and that I could stay there and do my part time degree next year but I think that I may have to take my words back.

Or, is that how the world works? If it is so, I am more disappointed than I ever have about the world.

In spite of all, I am still going to list down the three things that made me smile today.



1. The sight of Xinyu (the girl whom my mum babysits) because I have not seen her for quite some time and I really miss her a lot.

2. I had my subway treat – a reward for finishing six subway cookies during the office hour – from by colleague.

3. The moment my boss passed my payslip to me.