shall i?

As you read on, u might realize my title has nothing to do with this entry. =p Anyway, talking about posting entries on blog, I really admire those who post entries which are quite personal. To me, it needs some courage to do so. Ls tells me she has difficulties in understanding me better and deeper because I hardly express myself.

How many friends could see or feel I am not feeling okay when I appear happy? I could use a hand to count. Actually, I don’t need anyone to know. I am not sure why I am doing this. This is just me. Friends find it hard to believe I am naturally quiet. I become noisier when I became a prefect in primary 3. I never regretted because I am more out-going now. My friends usually think oppositely of what my relatives think of me. My relatives would think that I am always in my own world. In this way, my relatives are more accurate. I laugh more when I am with my friends. Does that mean I talk a lot? I am not sure too. I will talk more and also louder than usual when I am excited and nervous ( not when i am having presentation. i seriously need a mic!). Otherwise, I guess I would not.

Sometimes I wonder why certain people seem to hold more authorities than others. They can do what they like to express themselves yet others can’t. And, they would give ugly remarks about others. What are they? They are just human beings, aren’t they? Who gives them authorities in the first place? This is weird, isn’t it?

i know this entry is absurd but whatever. =p