Reflective self

Recently, I have been in a very grumpy mood. For most part of a day, I could keep rumbling on to myself. = (

I wish to stop for a moment to take a deep breath before moving on. I know it is impossible now. So, I have tried to make a few promises to myself:

NO emo-ing
NO unconstructive use of time like surfing net
NO thinking too much
NO day-dreaming

When you are being asked who the most important person is in your life, have you thought of who will immediately appear in your mind?

For me, it has been the same for most of my life. Although she may be demanding and unreasonable at times and can make me feel very hurt, disappointed and angry, she will always be that important in my life, I guess. I think she has done a lot for me that I feel that she could be my emotional support and give me a sense of assurance that I would be fine at times.

I always believe and feel that actions speak louder than words. Yes, I can be so touched, happy and glad at that instant if you were to say something nice to me. However, if you do not do anything to prove so, the magical feelings would be gone and I might even lose trust and confidence in you. Through the years, I am thankful, really very thankful for everything which she has done for me.

You know, I really hardly feel so worried for anything other than thinking a lot at times but I really feel so worried for her results now that I wish to give her all my luck so that she can excel in it. I always feel that her future is more important than mine. I guess the least I could do is to talk to her, let her vent her anger on me and encourage her.

I guess you might not read this but deep in my heart, I always hope and wish for the best for you. Never give up even until the last minute. Remember that you have me.

P.S. : I think I will not be posting any entry for 2 months.