Negativity


I write better when I do not feel that good – hey, not what people say, having PMS. On Monday, I was extremely pissed off by something that I cried at my workplace – without anyone knowing. I know it sounds silly that I cried but I seriously felt very helpless as I had/have no access to the internet to do my stuff. Well, I willed myself to stop as I did not want anyone to think that it would affect my work – this is a common assumption when you do not know someone well. Anyway, I bore with it till my way home. When my colleagues left, I closed my eyes and cried a little and decided to text Alex – my best friend, my confide mate – he is one of the few who really understands me and always has a way to make me feel better.

I am losing all my confidence again – I am ugly, a boring person with nothing to talk about and only knows how to irritate people with my thunderous laughter. Don’t worry, I know where to hide myself. I know I should take a break but I really cannot afford to.

My current feelings: confused, worried, scared, disappointed – yes, all the negative ones. I feel that I am like a volcano that is about to erupt soon. Ha ha.



I want to be heard but not to be hurt.