Extreme makeover?



Nono. I am just thinking of doing it. Seriously, whenever I look at myself into the mirror, I cannot stop telling myself that I am ugly. I was being told that I should not that do that to myself so I started telling myself, “I am pretty. I am pretty.” I stopped after saying three times because it is so difficult to lie to myself. Laugh out loud.

I do not like my face. I do not like how I dress up. I do not like my hair. =( But, money is always the issue so how am I going to dress myself up? Urgh! But, I am not that stingy when it comes to my loved ones – like my sis and certain friends (I think sis will deny it because she keeps telling me that I never buy anything for her. I really did so. =/) Perhaps, I should start hating them one day so that I can have more money for myself. =D

I seriously hate to wait. I cannot even wait for 5minutes so how am I going to wait for one month = thirty days = 720 hours = 43, 200 minutes? Actually, it is slightly less than that already but it is still very, very long. Everything is still very unpredictable. What if I get none of them? What should I do? I seriously need someone to tell me even though the future concerns me, not anyone of them out there.