What a night
Hi, my poor
neglected blog which I always come by when I am full of thoughts. Did I accidentally
neglect many people without realizing? I don’t know. Really.
Tonight,
something not so pleasant occurred that I had to whatsapp the classmate who
sits next to me to pretend that I was fine before I left the canteen. For the
first half an hour of the class, I tried so hard to pay attention with my tears
covering my vision. To be frank, I had no idea what I was attending except to
copy down whatever that was being told to.
Right now, I
am unsure how I am feeling. Anyway, time to hit the beach with my favourite
drink and a couple of magazines alone on a week day soon. By the way, last
night I had a thought (or a dream) to disappear and stay in another country. How
exciting. But I am unsure if I have the nerve to do it when I am slow in
mastering a new language. Nevertheless, it is worth trying. I am tired of being
a money-making tool – being alienated? Ha.
I am
surprisingly calm but am wide awake with a gastric pain. Yawn.
There is
almost nothing I cannot resolve except for matters that deal with emotions
(i.e. anything that ends with ‘ship’) as this is something that we cannot plan
out. No money? Work hard. No time to study due to work? Drink more coffee and study hard through the night and weekends.
