Peace
I just read my private blog and realized that I have been quite upset for the past one year. (FYI, I usually only post sad entries in my private blog.) Somehow, I wonder why I never put my words into action and cause myself in such a miserable state. Somehow, I am really thankful and touched that I am not forgotten by friends (even unexpected friends) who show concerns to me and willing to spend some of their precious time telling me that it is not worth it over that *. Perhaps, I was too upset to see it but now, I do. Now, I am no longer tearful but angry, disappointed and glad. I have found peace in myself. I am going to move on for real, i.e. to put my words into action this time. I am not going to be a puppet whose life is being manipulated by you and not going to be soft again. If I do, I seriously don’t see who is sillier than I am. I mark my words! Stop thinking so highly of yourself!