Xin Qing

Wang zhe yao yuan de tian kong, liao kuo de da hai.
Wo xi wang xin qing jiu xiang tian kong na mo kuang chang, xiang da hai na mo ping jing.
Ke shi, hao jing bu chang zai, dang wo zai xiang zhe de dang er jiu xia qi le da yu.
Mei liang xin de da yu yi zhi yi zhi da zai wo de shen shang.
Wo de xin qing jiu xiang bei leng feng chi guo de gan jue.
Wo yi zhi zai zhen zha zhe.
Zhang zai lu zhong yang de wo, hao wei nan, yao xiang zuo zhuo, hai shi you ne?
Wo kan dao de yi qie shi huan xiang ma?
Wo ken qiu lao tian ye bu yao zai xia yu le.
Bie na mo chang ren, you dian liang xin, shou xia liu qing, hao ma?
Da yu, ni zhi dao ni zou le duo shao de shang hai ma?
Ni zhen de na mo jian jue mei chuo ma?

Wo hui pang wang cai hong chu xian de na yi tian.
Yin wei wo xiang xing ming tian hui gen hao.

zu er

Finally

Today is Friday and I self-declared that it is a little holiday for me. I really did not have a good sleep because of the projects especially FOM. The last few days of the term break was even more unbearable for me because I was struggling to complete FOM project on time. This time round, I dare not promise my friends to go out with them and you are not wrong to say I rejected them again because of the FOM project. I am lucky enough for not falling sick. For WCD, I completed my part on the first week of the term break and only got it back last week. Then few days ago, I continued doing my part again. I guess I have to spend more time with my friends in the coming holidays. I feel that I have let them down especially a friend. I promised to go out with him for a least a year already but I still haven't met him up. He is not the only person. I just feel that during school weeks, studies should be on top priority then follow by my CCA although I am so slack.=( I keep on doing irrelevant things like reading and chatting on the phone. Anyway, I am so sorry, my friends.

A friend asked Lei Sim and I a question today. If a classmate hardly pays attention in class and does not study hard for exam and he is still able to top the class, will be you be jealous? I answered him with a firm ‘no’. Then he asked us which was supposed to be me, won’t you feel anything? Lei Sim said she feels weird about it. Well, my answer is no again. I asked him if let say everyone scored average and you scored 70 which was the top, would you feel happy? He shook his head. You see my point? This is also top of everyone but it is not your desire result. I feel that the only competitor should only be you, yourself. You should try to win yourself for everything. In this way, you will improve. If not, your result could at least remain the same standard. Most importantly, you will not hurt anyone.

Winning or even getting first is the reward of your hard work. The process of working towards your goal is even more fruitful and meaningful than it. I asked my sister this question while we were having our dinner just now. Her reaction was big. She said she hates this type of people. I guess I am the abnormal one. My sister’s results are always better than mine but they never act as a source of motivation for me to work hard. I am wondering why too. I hardly or never even feel jealous of others' good result but I will only feel proud for him/her. Don’t you feel that when you compare yourself with your friends or even anyone else, the relationship between both of you will turn sour? I just don't like to compete with others and also don't like others to compete with me.

Happy little holiday to Chu Er.

Those were the days.

This morning, I walked pass Queenstown Primary School as I wanted to return the book to Queenstown library. Uncontrollably, memories of my primary school days and mentoring sessions flashed back again. I saw those cute students which somehow reflected me when I was still a primary school student.

Back in my primary school days, I was someone who was fierce, with bad temper and even unreasonable at times and less crazy compared to now. I have surely changed myself over the years. When I was in upper primary, I was quite well-known for being a strict prefect. Some teachers even knew that I would report anyone who broke the school rules. A friend disliked me because I caught her for breaking the school rules. I guess she did not understand that I was just doing my duty. I was glad that I still had good friends who were willing to point out my mistakes and stand by my side when I needed them. Lei Sim was one of them. Because of her, I believe that true friends do exist. She is not the only friend whom I can vent all my unhappiness on and even understand that I did not do it on purpose. Of course, later, I would either apologize or explain everything to her or both. She is also not the only friend who understands me well. I am so glad to have the group of friends with me and always ready to listen to me and give me their opinions. She is the friend whom I trust the most. I think even when all my friends betray me, she will not do so. She is my most important girl friend. She knows her own mistakes. When I can’t stand her for being what she is, I would eventually tell her. I am telling her because she is trying hard to change herself for the better and so am I. There is almost nothing we hide from each other. I think I am really a bad friend at times but I wonder why she keeps saying I am a good friend. She is so silly.

Back to the main topic, as my sister is one year younger than me, so I had to take the registration form from my principal for her to enrol into my school. I remember vividly that my principal called my name and some other seniors to queue up and go his office. I was the only primary one student. I was so scared that I took the form without saying thank you when leaving his office. He called me back in front of the others. So, I turned back and said “oh.Thank you”. When I walked pass by those seniors, I remember them saying “she is so cute” =D Back then, my mum loved to spend time tying my hair with different hairstyle practically everyday! I miss those days. Anyway, during principal’s speech or reading time, I loved to look at the seniors. I admired them for being so tall and wished to be like them soon. There are so many things which I wish to do again, like playing catching and hide-and-seek. I shall add these for the next mentoring camp!I am just kidding.

I miss my mentee and other mentees.

The Wedding BY Nichloas Sparks

This is a highly recommended book. I have never read a book with the ending that is so good and unexpected. It is a story of a husband and wife. They were married for almost 30 years. The wife was extremely disappointed with him as he was always so busy with his work and hardly contributed anything to his family for the past 30 years. Somehow, she fell out of love with him. His husband could feel it and hoping to change for the better and made her fall in love with him again. For their 30th anniversary, he did something so romantic for his wife. Borrow the book from Queenstown library or try any other community library if you are interested to know.