Death

It was 22:37. I heard a vibration coming from my hand-phone. At first, I thought it was a new message. But, it was not but rather a call, an unexpected one. It was from my manager or rather ex manager. What she told me on the phone was even more unexpected.

A colleague or rather an ex-colleague committed suicide about 2 days ago. My mind went blank and I thought I heard it wrongly. My manager did not know and continued telling me the whole thing. She could not get over the fact that her grandmother passed away. After her death, she actually told her maid to kill her so that she could meet her grandmother. I worked with this colleague a few times before. She was a nice and friendly person. I did not get to interact with her much when I first worked with her because it was on Valentine’s Day and the shop was so busy and it was only my second day at work. Naturally, I was very unfamiliar with a lot of stuffs. I was quite shocked when she told me her problems when I worked with her the second time. I doubt that I have a friendly face especially towards people whom I am not close with. Few weeks passed and I was chatting with a colleague or rather an ex-colleague again. He told me that she started tearing when she told him her problems. I was shocked about everything but I thought nothing was wrong.

This piece of news affected me to the extent that I could not get to sleep last night. Uncontrollably, memories of me and her working together flashed back. I guess because it is my first time having someone whom I know, committed suicide therefore it affected my mood entirely. Even though she and I were not closed yet this could affect me. I wonder what if my loved ones were the ones, how worse would my mood gets? I could not imagine. I realised that I am afraid. I realised that it is very important to put others before you when making a decision.

Life is truly precious and fragile. I guess I would treasure my life even more. I realised how painful it is when someone left so it is important to take your life seriously or else your loved ones would be hurt by your actions.

P.S. This piece of news was published yesterday on newspaper