‘Dirty’ Jokes {Editted}



Did I say that we have lots of ‘dirty’ jokes in the office? I think it is due to the female working environment so we dare to crack such jokes. It gets funnier when it comes to me because I will ask a lot of weird questions which people will not ask openly. Ha ha ha.

Like recently, a colleague asked me to accompany her for a Brazilian wax. I thought that it would be fun because I have not tried any sort of waxing before so I agreed without thinking. After that, I went to the toilet and started thinking what the wax is about. So, I went back and asked her, “Hey XXX, which part of the body it is for?” XXX replied, “You don’t know? It is for virginal.” Laugh out loud. I stared at her and started laughing out loud. Then, I started asking a lot of ‘why’ questions. For example, why do we have to do that? They would say it is for hygiene purpose and you will feel better after that. I would say, “But, I am really feeling okay so why do I have to do it?” Ha ha ha. Quite nerve-racking to talk to me, right? = p I know I am quite ignorant but people around me do not talk about this. =( No, I am not blaming them so do not start sharing it with me because my brain is already quite polluted with lots of such jokes/stories. o.o

This is just one of the many jokes we have. =x


Oh well, I should not have posted this entry but I have nothing to do. I am supposed to go for my run but it is raining now! ROAR. I will only leave house at 5pm to meet sis for a dinner at Jurong Point.



We had Japanese meal for our dinner with mum. Mum will usually choose to have Japanese meal whenever she is with us and the best is, she pays for it. =D Well, we hardly have meal together. Anyway, my stomach is moody as well. It was only my 2nd meal but I did not feel like having it. Is it a pro or con to be moody? I think it is a pro because I will eat much lesser as a result of it. Ha ha ha.

I am not sure if it is due to my moodiness or lack of enthusiasm in shopping, I actually stood aside when my mum was looking at her shirts. We were so far away from each other to even have a conversation. Ha ha. I think I am behaving like a zombie. I will smile, laugh or talk to suit the situation I am in. I know I should cry to ease the pain but no matter how hard I try, no tears roll down. Sigh.



There goes my precious weekend again.

Have a Kindness Day, please?



Apart from the stress I face from my work, I also begin to face what most people hate, office politics.

I am really trying to be neutral but seem to be stuck in the middle. Argh. Anyway, I have made myself clear not to involve me in any way because I already have more than enough problems to deal with.


Today, I was being reminded that I am supposed to be flawless yet again. I merely made a minor mistake and I was being told off like nobody’s business. I seriously did not know I was supposed to share that with her and that she was going to share hers with me. Perhaps, she told me but I misunderstood it. Anyway, why couldn’t she remind me while I was eating it? Whenever such similar case occurs, I would be dumbfounded. Why couldn’t they say that they were at fault as well instead of putting ALL the blames on me?

Yes, I am supposed to be smart, cheerful, happy, kind, friendly, confident and an extrovert to most people. The point is, I cannot remind everyone that I am only human. I make mistakes. Who does not make mistakes? Who does not want to be liked by everyone? I am tired of explaining. I am truly disappointed. Sorry, as much as I hope to be perfect, I am not.



I begin to understand that you are being cruel to yourself if you are being kind to others. It does not pay well to be kind but I will not regret it.

Lovely Saturday!


I had a great Saturday by bringing the elderly to the Singapore Flyers. Some may think that it is an activity too boring for a precious weekend but it is something very enriching and meaningful to me. Everything was on our side because of the fine weather. The old lady, whom I looked after, enjoyed herself too. It was my first time taking the Singapore Flyers in the daytime and I thought that it was better than taking it at night. I think I was quite lucky in a way because I had never paid a single cent for all my rides. =D

I could not help but to smile when I saw that they seemed to be smiling from the bottom of their heart. It is very heartwarming. ^^

On our ride back to the old folks' home, I realised that she seemed to be thinking about something. I wish I could know.

At the end of the day, that old lady held my hand tightly and said, “Thank you so much. God bless you.” I felt rather touched at that moment because my help was appreciated. It really brightened my day. =)

Whenever I visit the home, it saddens me to see some of the elderly as some of them really look so weak. It just reminds me that life is really fragile. We are often advised to treasure our loved ones but how often do we really do it? Looking at my current lifestyle, I have to admit that I am far from doing it. The thing is, what is the point of doing it when you know that it is not going to be appreciated and the reward for doing it is to get hurt all over again? I tried. I tried so many times that I offically give up. I would rather spend time with people who really appreciate my presence and truly love and care for me. It is just too bad that it is not them and I will try my hardest to accept my fate. I never keep my promise of not crying over them again. But, each time it happens, I will cry like nobody's business. When I am lost, where are you? When I need an advice, where are you? You only hurt me and make me more hurt and lost like nobody's business. It is YOUR forte. How many times do I have to keep myself moving? I am seriously running out of motivation. What if one day I totally lose it? Are you going to regret that you never really loved or cared for me the way I hope I could see from you? When are you going to stop me from doing things that I really, really want? I only live once. You make me feel that I am bad at everything and it is so bad that I am trying so hard to figure out my strength. People say that you have to love yourself before you love others. Perhaps, I can care for others but not love. I think this is one of the reasons why I think that I will be a very bad girlfriend. Oh hell. I openly hope that I can have my own family. We shall see.


I should get reminded of a certain event of my life but I do not seem to recall anymore. How strange. Perhaps my tiredness has worn me down so much that I could only remember something that took place yesterday. I need a getaway from work and negativity of life. I need some intelligence for my emotion so that I will not get hurt so often. Perhaps, I should really try something which I never thought I would and could do, like...I am not too sure either. Would you like to suggest one? I think I lost track of my life. I am counting down to next year yet I am not because things in my life will change again and I have to learn to adapt it. I wish to amend things which were not right and do it all over again. I realised that I regretted doing certain things or making certain decisions yet I am glad that they happened. As time passes by, I lose more confidence and faith in certain things of my life. (Alex forbids me from saying that I am a bad girlfriend. Eh. No, I am still single. Ha Ha.) I realised that things are getting more and more complicated as I grow up. Maybe I am making things complicated for myself.

I am missing a lot of things. School. Free time. Camps. Studying. Wearing casual clothes more often than formal attire. Sleep. (I am not missing my friends because I spend most of my free time with them.^^)

Exciting Thursday


I enjoyed my day even though I was so tired for the first half of the day.

Today was a smooth day except for a damn candidate who stood me up by not turning up for the interview. Ha. Seriously, from the start till now, I have never really felt pissed off by it. I am more surprised to how irresponsible some working adults can be and I could not stop cursing them. Ha ha ha. =p

Anyway, my computer issue was finally solved. I was not the one telling that IT guy about it but my colleagues. Basically, everyone knew about it and could not wait to tell him. The moment he walked towards my table, I stood up and walked away even before he completed his sentence/question. =x I think my whole face was burning red. They made me feel so shy to talk to him. =/

Next month, my company will be celebrating Christmas on the 24th of December. One of the programs they planned is to exchange gift. Everyone has to draw a name from the box and you will have to buy a gift (budget of $20) for the person (whose name you drew). Guess whose I drew? Sigh. I nearly fainted on the spot. Laugh out loud. No, the person is not that IT guy. =) The good thing is, there will be a list for us to write down three wishes and we will just choose and buy one of the wishes for the gift receiver. Seriously, I have nothing which I really want and what I want is quite intangible.



They are:

1. Love (from family and friends)
2. Concern
3. Freedom



Can anyone grant me any of those? No, right? See, how do buy my most desired gift? =( Well, I will still write something down. Ha. Can I have that $20 instead? =/



I AM PRETTY EXCITED ABOUT THE GIFT EXCHANGE! But, the bad thing about it is, we will be forfeited if we guess our Santa Claus (the person who buys for you) wrongly. =/

Bad week


I had a really bad week. My internet was down and the technician could only come to my house and solve the issue on Friday morning. Can you imagine how bored I was for the whole week?

Work was quite terrible. I really hate it when I have to discuss about work during ALL my lunchtime when I really want to have that precious one hour break. I tried to listen to my music using my earpiece and pretend that I could not hear anything but it does not work! Anyway, I was really pissed off today. Yes, everything is urgent but I do not wish to work for nine solid hours. I am not paid that well to work that hard for them. I am even more pissed off when I hear how they treated/treat my ex-colleagues/colleagues. I cannot believe that I am working for people – no, perhaps, I should say devil – who badmouth all their staff and expect everyone to be perfect when they are FAR from it.

On my way home, I came out with a list of things that they could badmouth about me.
1. Laugh too much during work
2. Being too muddle-headed
3. Not meticulous enough
4. Speak bad English
5. Desperate for boyfriend – possible since they (not referring to nice colleagues) keep matchmaking me with that IT guy and any guy they can think of.

Maybe there are more but I do not wish to know because I still have seven months to go. Whatever, okay?

I think I should really, really get that IT guy to solve my computer issue when he comes again so that I could watch my video during my lunch time. But, it is very hard not to be/feel shy when everyone is teasing about he and I. *Screams*

I need a lonnnnnngg break, really. Today, I lied to my tutee’s dad that I had something on so I could cancel my tuition and go out with my colleagues. I am really tired that her attitude towards her work is so poor. I am still holding onto this because I need the money. I know that I will surely give up on this after her CA1 next year.


Period.