Bid Goodbye
Parting with
my two months’ vacation is one of the most difficult things to deal with
especially when I hate the fact that I need to return to ‘hell’ again. After talking
to so many people about my feelings and thoughts, I think the people who could
truly understand it are still those who do the same program as me and hold a
full time job (not part time or ad-hoc jobs). They truly understand why I need a certain amount of
time to do revision and rest. Sigh. Of course, I cannot make everyone
understand it and I only hope that people stop telling me to take a rest or go
out. If I go out and lose the amount of time which I can use to do my revision
and rest, are they going to return the time back to me? Actually, I hate doing
revision after work and over the weekends too. But what, do I have a choice?
Anyway,
other than that, I am really, really thankful to friends who fork out time to
meet up with me during this short vacation. Without them, I am sure that my
vacation will not be as fruitful. I am especially grateful to have those
friends who constantly provide moral support and encouragement to me while I was
studying for my exams. Judging the tight schedule, I am pretty skeptical that I
could handle it, once again (unless I need not go at all for the next four
months). I hope that this is the final lap for me. I hope I have made the right
choices. I have had enough of this crap. Okay, now I hope that I would take it easy. Last year, I cried almost everyday for a month when school started after my vacation. I guess, this shows how terrible the entire thing is to me. Ha.
after two years, I am still very bitter about this whole thing. :(
