Finally


I think that today was a good start to solve some of the problems on hand. The unnecessary misunderstandings are cleared and I really feel much better.

I am seriously trying hard to better express myself because there are so many times where what I thought was different from what I said. I simply had no idea how to put my thoughts into words. As a result of this, I will feel very disappointed and frustrated with myself so I will start to keep quiet as I really cannot accept that simple thoughts cannot be put into words and when it also causes misunderstanding. Sometimes, I just keep too many things to myself that it accumulates to a big problem. Due to this, it pulls me down so much that I could not think properly and it causes me to hurt some people around me. (I am really sorry. I swear that I never have the intention to hurt anyone.)

Due to the lack of courage to solve the issues in the right way, I have been feeling very upset (and near to depression) for the past few months so I guess I have been rather quiet too because I just could not get myself to smile.

I seriously hope that both of us will get fine soon. I hope that we will not bear grudges against each other anymore because it really affects and hurts me in some ways which I believe you may feel the same way as I am.


Setting this aside, he said that if he had a blog, he would blog something stupid about me. Well, I shall do it on behalf of him.

On Sunday, he called me after work as he wanted to meet me so to go home together since he had just knocked off from work too.

He: “I meet you at the Starbucks, ok?”
Me: “Huh? Where is it? I don’t know what you are talking about. I meet you at the Starbucks. You know that one near to the MRT station? Ya. That one.”
He: “Yes. I meet you at the Starbucks.” (He was referring to what I was talking about.)
Me: “I really don’t know what you are talking about. I cannot hear you. I meet you at the Starbucks near to the MRT station, ok?” (Should imagine how confused I was.)
He: “Yes, I am referring to that one. What do you think I am talking about?”

I felt that it was quite funny. HA HA.


Due to the many issues, I have to admit that I cannot stay at home for too long. There were 2 days where I stayed at home and my mood got worse because I kept thinking. I should not be alone for the time being and should be occupied with something. I just do not want to get into depression because I will keep thinking of giving up everything inclusive of my life. So bad, eh?


I must thank the 2 people who have been hearing so much about me and I shall not mention names here because it seems that every little small thing can lead to misunderstanding which I cannot afford to deal with now. You are loved by Chu Er. =)