Deaf and dumb


Recently, I feel that I have serious hearing problem or is it a problem in my concentration? I keep hearing the wrong information!

Scenario 1
My law teacher was telling the class a story about a few people who got lost on an isolated island – well this is not the point. The point is, I seriously heard that he said that the Japanese man was being strangled by a man so I was patiently waiting for that point. When the story ended, I went “huh? I thought that the Japanese guy would be strangled?” This sentence confused most of them too. But, I seriously heard that. =x

Scenario 2
A teacher told us to do our draft work. I guess it was because a few asked if we still needed to return to class and she said to be back at 1 p.m. I heard that so when it was 1p.m., I asked some of them why didn’t they go back to class and they seemed to be confused by my words too.

Everyone knew and got the right information except for myself. =x GOSH. I must pay attention in class!



Today, a teacher told us that he helped us to do a statistic of our class GPA of all sort of information inclusive of our target GPA for this semester. As it is confidential information, so we had to ask him individually.

One part of the conversation is, he told me to speak up more because I am too quiet in class. (I know some people who read this may ask, “Are you sure” or “Are you kidding”? Yes, I am sure. No, I am not kidding. Ha ha.)

I told my mum about it then she said that he must have judged me wrongly. =x

So I said, it may seem that I pay attention in class so I keep quiet but in actual fact, I day-dream half of the time. = p

Well, sometimes, I dare not speak up even when I have something in mind because I have no confidence of what I am going to say. I am trying to gain my confidence but ironically, I keep losing it. If I do not speak, there is no way I am going to be wrong, isn’t it? I used to speak up for others and even myself when they or I got bullied by others by not now. I have lost so much confidence of myself that it is showing up so obviously to many others now.

Anyway, on a lighter note, a secondary school classmate just contacted me because we lost contact. We did not really talk ever since we were in different classes after sec 2. I am really glad that she remembers me and made the effort to search for my contact and all. =) I did not know that she kept thinking of me until she told me. Did I say that I am always afraid that people will forget me?



I am trying to be happy. Even if I can’t, let me laugh and smile like nobody’s business.