Last bit of holiday

My holiday is over? So soon? GOSH. I really do not want for the Nth time.
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I have managed to meet up for some friends but not all because I have been busy with work.
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Actually, I promised myself to let myself to have a good rest in this holiday but the thought of staying at home (equals to using long hours of computer equals to increment in electricity bill is something which I will feel guilty of), going out more (equals to spending money on food, clothes and transportation will make me feel guilty) and recession (equals to increment of lots of expenses equals to needing more money than usual) so I decided to work so to earn as much as I can. Worrying too much or thinking too far ahead? This is just me and I am the eldest child so I always believe that I should do my part to help my family instead of adding more burden = / In one word, I should be more independent. Actually, I want myself to be even more independent. You may not have to agree because it is just my thought. =)

One night, I could not get to sleep because the day after working for the F1 event, I slept for more than 12hours. =/ This is when I will start to think a lot and I had a serious thought about what I want to do. My future is now a joy if everything goes not too badly. =)

After this holiday, I learnt a lot about the outside world. I know that I must not be so gullible but wise. Some people just keep lying and all youI can do is to pretend not to know. I feel that if someone intends to hide something from you, what can you do? Nothing much. I will feel disappointed but try hard to be understanding. Well, I will definitely be more wary of the person. I just hope that I will not get over-sensitive.

Oh no. I think I am still as sensitive as before. *Shake head* I kind of give up on changing myself because I have done what I can. I know some people do give up on me and I am not really the prove-you-right type of person so it makes me lose hope too. Ha.

I want to do a lot of things but my work always pulls me back that I only have very little time. =( I think I am going to meet up more people in this or next month. Yes, I look forward to seeing them again.

Oh. I have decided that I want to be an extrovert in my next life – if there is – as I feel upset when I am being left out as sometimes I really do not know how to mix around with people. =/ Never mind. I am still trying hard to be an extrovert. Ha.


Sis, I am not sure if you read this but anyway, all the very best for your A level! Score many As! You have never let us down due to your studies so you should do well for this too. Let’s make it to university together! But, remember, even if you cannot, it does not matter because it is not the end of the world. Jia you! =)