Have a Kindness Day, please?
Apart from the stress I face from my work, I also begin to face what most people hate, office politics.
I am really trying to be neutral but seem to be stuck in the middle. Argh. Anyway, I have made myself clear not to involve me in any way because I already have more than enough problems to deal with.
Today, I was being reminded that I am supposed to be flawless yet again. I merely made a minor mistake and I was being told off like nobody’s business. I seriously did not know I was supposed to share that with her and that she was going to share hers with me. Perhaps, she told me but I misunderstood it. Anyway, why couldn’t she remind me while I was eating it? Whenever such similar case occurs, I would be dumbfounded. Why couldn’t they say that they were at fault as well instead of putting ALL the blames on me?
Yes, I am supposed to be smart, cheerful, happy, kind, friendly, confident and an extrovert to most people. The point is, I cannot remind everyone that I am only human. I make mistakes. Who does not make mistakes? Who does not want to be liked by everyone? I am tired of explaining. I am truly disappointed. Sorry, as much as I hope to be perfect, I am not.
I begin to understand that you are being cruel to yourself if you are being kind to others. It does not pay well to be kind but I will not regret it.