A better day
Well, I got into my office with the usual “just another work day” mood. I think I really enjoy talking to the two intern students and one of them is sitting right in front of me. They will be leaving in about five weeks’ time. I have a feeling that I will feel sad about it. =/ Another usual event will be the bickering between my manager and I which cause my colleagues to laugh at us. Sometimes, my manager will even laugh to tears. You can see what a clown I am. Either I am being too muddle-headed, the things I say or the way I laugh that cause all the laughter in the first level. I think I am born to make others laugh. o.O It must be due to my child-like character. I am still young at heart! =D
Ever since that matter, I just have the urge to write down my thoughts whenever I can even when I just wake up from my sleep. There must always be a start if I really want to open myself up. Sometimes, when I read through my blogs, I feel that what I wrote differs from how I usually behave. Yes, I cry easily but I feel quite uneasy to cry in front of people. Did I say that I will not cry in front of anyone unless I am really, really down or upset?
Anyway, my work day ended well even though I had to do half an hour of OT to finish up my work and wait for my manager to finish her work.
Oh ya. I just received an invitation to Cedrick and Meryl’s 21st birthday celebration. They actually customized the card. So sweet of them! I have a feeling that Meryl wrote the details and Cedrick added in the funny parts. It seems like everyone is holding a big 21st birthday celebration. But, I still think that a quiet birthday celebration is more ideal for me due to many reasons. Reasons like, may not have the time for the planning, really doubt that my family will turn up and may not have the time to talk to all my friends and everyone belongs to different clique so it will be a little awkward for some. I seriously do not mind meeting new people but I don’t really fancy big group gathering.
GOOD NEWS! My dad allows me to stay overnight on their birthday. I am so happy because it is my first time doing it openly. ^^ You guys are so honoured! Guess what I said? I said, “I am still young. So, do you really expect me to do all these when I turn 31 or 41?” Ha. As usual, he will always add on, “Must love yourself” Meaning, not to have sex with anyone. o.o I won’t! My policy is to give my first time to the love of my life. Eh. Don’t laugh at me. I am really serious about it. =/
Oh ya. A colleague wanted to buy condoms for the Chinese custom wedding to make the “brothers” do silly action. Ha. I got really excited over “condoms” because I have not really seen or touch it before. The only memory I have is during Secondary 2, the boy sitting next to me actually brought condoms to school. I only knew about it after he got a scolding from my teacher and I only got a glance at it for a few seconds. Perhaps, my friends are really innocent or they feel that they will scare me off by having any indecent conversation with me. Anyway, some tried and they could see that I am not comfortable with it. See, I am so pure and innocent, how would I have sex with people? Okay, perhaps I may due to my soft-heartedness. But, touch wood. I can’t give in due to this. No way man.
Somehow, I am still feeling the emptiness. I am a very stubborn individual (a better word will be, determined) so if I don't do what I want or plan to do, I will not give up until I get it done. Yes, I am not totally okay. Like what Alex said, it will be so unlike me if I get over it so quickly. True.
